I have so much going on in my brain today, so I'm not sure if this post will make sense to anyone (including myself).
Today would have been mine and Drew's third anniversary. I've been okay coming up to it, but last night and today have been a bit emotional for me. I was able to sub this morning, so that got my mind off it for a bit.
My first roommate ever, Falyn, has been doing a "Thankful of Paper" series on her blog for the month of November. She chose me for last week, except she didn't get it posted until today-perfect timing. It was wonderful to wake up today and read her blog, A Life Filled with Joy. She helped me start today off on a grateful foot. She and I have been friends for 11 years now (WOW, can't believe it!), and although we don't talk on a regular basis we usually have a good conversation at least once a month. We have both been through some major "stuff" in our lives, and we've both been there for the other through it all. Sometimes we wait a little longer to realize that we need to other, but we get there eventually :)
Some of you are probably wondering why I was subbing today, huh? Well as the title suggests I have a lot to say today...
I withdrew from nursing school a few weeks ago. A lot of thought and prayer went into the decision. First off I needed a job! Secondly, and really more importantly, I needed to be here for my family. I just got married and I wasn't being the wife I needed to be for my husband. When I got married I also acquired 3 kids. I was feeling guilty anytime I spent time with them. Guilty that I wasn't doing my school work and guilty that I was feeling that way about spending time with them. I was missing soccer games, and was on my way to missing basketball games. So I, along with my family, made the decision to withdraw. I withdrew, instead of finishing the semester, so that I would have a clean slate if I decided to return to nursing school in the future. I didn't want to have my grades from this semester hanging over me. They were mostly C's, but in the last few weeks I had made some not so great grades, because I had sacrificed study time for family time.
Well I guess I've said all that I can say today.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
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Mrs. Brock - you have been on my mind for the past week or so, as I too remembered that this day was coming for you. I didn't remember exactly the date, but knew about when. I continue to hold you in my prayers, and am glad you are finding ways to care for yourself, even as you care for others. Difficult decisions are no less difficult to make in a family setting, and I am glad you have your family with you as you make them. Peace be with you, friend.
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Ruth...even though I just met you when we started nursing school together I feel like you are a kindred sister. You are such a sweet and caring person and I have truly missed you. I hope you know that you can still call me ...I would love to chat. I really enjoy reading your posts and I wish you all the happiness in the world.
ReplyDeleteLove ya girl
Katie